I forget people's birthdays

Delete is the worst button.

"Gabe will miss you"

"Riley will miss you"

"Emily will miss you"

I don't even know what the word deactivate means.

Goodbye's make me numb.
I couldn't even taste my chocolate chip cookie.
Okay, my 3 chocolate chip cookies.
Okay, 4.

Things that shouldn't make me sad do.
I discovered this as my tears fell in the middle of
the Q and the W on the dusty keyboard.

I just need my mom.

and probably a blankie.

and an episode of 
Curious George.

But only God is there at 1:30 a.m
when the screen is blurred and the mouse is still.
Still hovering over that okay button when it isn't okay.

So I cried and cried until the waves washed over me until

my knees buckled

And I fell to the ground trying to remember who I was.

Delete is the worst button